The deeper I get into my yoga practice, the more obvious it is that this path was waiting for me all along, I just refused to see it.
I used to be someone who thought yoga was too easy, too slow and too relaxed for me. Stand there in triangle pose and breathe and say OMMM? YOU MUST BE KIDDING.
The tough get going, right? Yea me, not so much. When it comes to most things in my life, when the going gets too tough for my easily bruised Leo ego, I quit. More precisely, when I believe that I suck at something, I am no longer interested in doing it. "Psssh. I don't need this, this is stupid." It doesn’t feel good to admit that, but it’s the truth.
One of the most challenging parts of my adult life thus far has been learning to be okay with being uncomfortable. I don’t know about you, but my psyche does basically anything it can to avoid being emotionally uncomfortable. I can safely say that I spent years avoiding everything - avoiding my feelings (good or bad), avoiding confrontation, avoiding people I felt I had somehow offended (even if it was just in my imagination) - just generally avoiding. Turns out that avoidance is one hell of a lonely place to be. It alienates us from experiences, from other people but most importantly, from ourselves.
So this crazy transition happened yesterday. For the first time ever, I was able to come down from a handstand into another arm balanced called Koundinyasana B, in one fell swoop. Let me remind you (*cough* myself) yoga isn’t about achievements, but sometimes we have to celebrate when breakthroughs do happen - and I'm not gonna lie, I have a hard time not getting excited when I reach milestones in my physical yoga practice. It's so fun!!!
I’ve been meaning to write this post for a while but was waiting for things to become…official. Well, as of today it’s official. After 10 years of working a career (that I was very fortunate to have but that did not satisfy my soul) and 31 years of searching for my path in life, I have finally decided to grab myself by the bootstraps, stop “waiting” for something to change and just MAKE SHIT HAPPEN. To be more specific, I have resigned from the company where I have been since August 2005 in pursuit of a dream - creating a life I love by teaching yoga and working one-on-one with people to help them heal and change their lives.